Friday, August 22, 2008
I had an interesting thing happen to me yesterday. I was carrying Adelle and walking to my parent's house when I had this very strong and peaceful feeling come over me. It was one of those times when you think, "Oh! I should definitely pay attention to this feeling!". I had a strong sense that my life right now is exactly as it should be. It definitely isn't exactly how I want it to be, but it is how it should be. In my almost-perfect world I wouldn't have to work anymore, Phillip would be graduated from school, Adelle would stay four months old for about six more months, Alexa wouldn't be starting kindergarten next week, and Grace would have full use of her body. But, this isn't an almost-perfect world and I feel very blessed with what life has given me. It's nice to know that Heavenly Father knows me, Marianne Marie Olson, and each of my daughters. It's comforting to know that He is aware that Alexa is a little scared to start school. It's comforting to know that He is aware that Grace has to work a billion times harder than most of us to do many things. It's comforting to know that He is aware of each little tear I shed because I just decided that I fell in love with Phillip again (I guess that's a good thing!), or because Grace can't play with the other kids but she's happy to just watch, or because I had to work instead of take my girls to the zoo. Anyway, it was a very wonderful feeling to be reminded that Heavenly Father has the course of my family's life in His hands and that we're right where we need to be, no matter how difficult (or wonderful!) it may be sometimes.